do not read.
My heart pounds as I look you in the face
You tell me you love me
and then push me and tell me Im a disgrace.
but not til my back has turned
will you tell me you yearn
to ignore me
to hate me.
you build something up
and knock it all down.
Can I trust that you love me?
Can I trust that you don't lie?
How do I know this isnt just another game.
You put me to shame.
You want me to trust you? But what you give me every reason not to. You have people come up to me and tell me all these lies. You get involved with someone whos "madly" in love with you? What about me? I thought I was your girlfriend, the one who you wanted to be with for awhile, not forever, not ever. I can understand that, Forever is just a fairy tale something that isnt real. A distance that is too great to deal with. Yeah, I get that, I dont want that either, but a while, maybe a year? Someone who wont treat me like crap, thats you, though sometimes, you upset me, though sometimes I dont get you, Im still here. After I get yelled at by that girls sister, after I sit here and take her giving me the finger and smirking at me, talking crap about me infront of me loud enough for me to hear. You dont want me? Then leave, dont tease.
You want me to respect you? Show me some too. I tell you I love you, I show you respect, what else do you want? I try my hardest to give all the trust I can. You go over a girls house, its a natural reaction to be a bit jealous, its a girl whos madly in love with you or so she says, shes only fourteen, how old are you sir? Maybe you shouldnt dabble with women her age, because they dont know, neither do I, neither do you.
I try to help you in anyway I can, blankets, places to live, education. I kept those messages from that certain day, when you told me youd throw weed, smoking, drinking away. I believe you can do it when you want. How many people just shrugged their shoulders and said it isnt going to happen? How many told me it was just what he usually says and doesnt do it. Who believes in you? Who will stick by you? Not a fourteen year old thats for sure.
You want me to respect you? Show me some too. I tell you I love you, I show you respect, what else do you want? I try my hardest to give all the trust I can. You go over a girls house, its a natural reaction to be a bit jealous, its a girl whos madly in love with you or so she says, shes only fourteen, how old are you sir? Maybe you shouldnt dabble with women her age, because they dont know, neither do I, neither do you.
I try to help you in anyway I can, blankets, places to live, education. I kept those messages from that certain day, when you told me youd throw weed, smoking, drinking away. I believe you can do it when you want. How many people just shrugged their shoulders and said it isnt going to happen? How many told me it was just what he usually says and doesnt do it. Who believes in you? Who will stick by you? Not a fourteen year old thats for sure.
Ill always believe you always respect you and always hold you close to my heart. I dont care if you feel the same, I dont care if you do what you do.
I went to you instead of listening to those jerks, I talked to a few people and asked what really happened after you left, because It was weird, it didnt make sense, you didnt answer your phone. So tonight when you get calls they arent my doing. I dont want people to call you, I want you to tell me whats going on thats all. But your phones probably messed up, and your probably going to go hang out with that girl, because shes your friend.
Make your decision and choose wisely, Im only going to be here for a little bit. I will take all I can take until I explode, but I believe you over them becasue I think I know you a little bit better than they do. I know you can do it. I know your capable. You make me happy, and I thought I made you happy. I try my hardest to stay at a constant, but Im up and down. I wont kill myself if you break up with me. Or kill you, thats just ridiculous.
Im going to talk to my friends about whats going on yes, but Im not asking them to spread anything, and if they do Ill know it. It just bugs me how you tell me you love me but you go to someone else who wants to ruin our relationship because she thinks shes in love.
Hun, she doesnt know what love is.
I went to you instead of listening to those jerks, I talked to a few people and asked what really happened after you left, because It was weird, it didnt make sense, you didnt answer your phone. So tonight when you get calls they arent my doing. I dont want people to call you, I want you to tell me whats going on thats all. But your phones probably messed up, and your probably going to go hang out with that girl, because shes your friend.
Make your decision and choose wisely, Im only going to be here for a little bit. I will take all I can take until I explode, but I believe you over them becasue I think I know you a little bit better than they do. I know you can do it. I know your capable. You make me happy, and I thought I made you happy. I try my hardest to stay at a constant, but Im up and down. I wont kill myself if you break up with me. Or kill you, thats just ridiculous.
Im going to talk to my friends about whats going on yes, but Im not asking them to spread anything, and if they do Ill know it. It just bugs me how you tell me you love me but you go to someone else who wants to ruin our relationship because she thinks shes in love.
Hun, she doesnt know what love is.
